Well, I'm nuts..

It's time to get down to sirius bizness.

I went to the docs today to get my results (go back a couple of posts) and this is what I scored:

Depression: 18
Anxiety: 12
Stress: 18

So. What does this mean for me?

Basically it means that I have to have medication, I have to go and see a psychologist, and I have to get better.

My doctor thinks I'm weird, but not just coz of this:

Doc: You scored 18/12/18.. that's not good muppet
me: Yeah well, if I'm gonna go crazy, I might as well do it properly..
Doc: ..*silence*..
me: What?
Doc: I don't know if you're joking or not
me: *innocent smile*
Doc: You have a very strange sense of humor muppet.. have you been taking your medication?
me: Nope
Doc: What? WHY NOT? *nearly falls off chair*
me: coz i wanted to ask you more about the side effects and all that
Doc: oh.. that's okay then. But you're going to take it right?
me: I guess... If I have to
Doc: You have to
me: Well I will then
Doc: Well that's good
me: if you say so
Doc: don't do that..
me: do what?
Doc: that!
me: what?
Doc: THAT!
me: *big grin*
Doc: You're doing this on purpose aren't you?
me: No *innocent smile again*
Doc: You know you have to take the medication right?
me: yes I do
Doc: and you're going to.. right?
me: yes I am
Doc: and you're paying attention to everything I'm saying right?
me: yes, i am
Doc: You have a 2nd head
me: Yes i kno... what?
Doc: Just making sure
me: and you think I'm weird..

and it went on like that. It's not like I MEAN to do it. I just do it. I can't help it. He's starting to realize this I think. My doc is good coz he wants to understand me, even though he's figured out it's virtually impossible to do so.

I'm not difficult.

Really.

I'm in a good mood though, I know I'm getting help and the weight that's on my shoulders has been lifted a little, so I guess that's a start.

But now I have a new thing to freak out about. Going to see the headshrinkerer. Doc says she's great and highly recommends her.

If she can put up with me, then she's okay in my books.